January 2009
27 posts
Not your maid
Everyone in this house is required to clean up after themselves. I am not your fucking maid. Quit askingtelling me to clean up your messes. I will be more than happy to clean up the messes I’ve made because they are my responsibility.
& you know what? I don’t need your fucking sarcasm either. You are not funny. You just sound like a douche. You’re acting like a douche. Quit...
December 2008
37 posts
You wanna know what fucking sucks?
One sided friendships. Feeling like no matter how much you put into a friendship, that person isn’t going to give two shits. I’m fucking tired of wasting my time. I’m tired of thinking we’re close & we can always turn to each other with our shit. It sounds to me, like everything that we used to have was bullshit. I feel so forgotten, like I don’t even matter...
“When life gives you lemons just like, fuck the lemons & bail.”
“If you’re not getting answers ask better questions.”
– Cartel
This Christmas
I honestly didn’t get a lot. I had made my mom a list, yeah a little late, but nothing that was on my list was underneath my tree this year.
But you know what? I don’t really care. Because I had fun spending the day with my family. I got to see my favorite cousin who moved to Sacramento. It’s not easy going a whole year without seeing one of your favorite people. So it was...
Leftovers
Time to eat my feelings.
Boston
Today I got an application for a 5-week summer program at Berklee Music College. I’ve got to start saving my money and applying for those scholarships. I do not have 4 grand.
“As we express gratitude, we must never forget that the highest appreciation is...”
– JFK
Winter Wonderland
Yesterday morning I went outside to see if there was a surprise for me. Sadly, there was nothing. I checked about 10 mintues later & there was white on the ground. I had a feeling that it wasn’t going to last. They still made us go to school, but it continued to snow throughout all of our finals. Getting out of the parking lot was hell. It took almost an hour. I couldn’t believe it...
So-called
I love my friends, I really do. We are always making fun of each other. What kind of friends would we be if we didn’t? & honestly, I don’t have a problem with it. Make fun of me all you want, I’m Jewish for Christ’s God’s sake it’s what i’m there for. But if you’re going to make jokes, say them outloud so I can laugh about it too. When you...
Some Kind of Love
Have you ever missed someone who hurt you so much? Someone who showed you new ways of breaking someone down? Someone who showed you how much pain a person you barely know can cause? Someone who gave you butterflies with one look? Someone who made you miss them even when you wanted to hate them?
God, I hate that he still makes me think about him.
When I think about it though, when I like guys...
Winter, winter couldn't come quicker
Mom says it’s supposed to snow this weekend. I couldn’t help it, I laughed. In the desert? Get real. But of course on the inside, I’m really hoping it will. I want my own Frosty the Snowman.
“I’m a dreamer with nothing left to dream.”
– Matchbook Romance
Oh lord
Why do i procrastinate so damn much?
Just one more week. One more week & i’m out at least until January. Oh how i can’t wait for Hanukah :] Potato latkas & matzo ball soup here i come!
“Sing like you think no one’s listening”
– Straylight Run
Dream come true
I know what my dreams are. I’m not some girl who has no idea where she wants to go in life. I’m just so afraid to admit them outloud because I’m so sure that i’ll never achieve them. I don’t want to set myself up for anything. I don’t want to get my hopes up just for them to be let back down. So I hide them. Hiding is my security blanket. I need to stop hiding.
...
“Heaven’s not a place that you go when you die, it’s that moment in...”
– The Spill Canvas
I had a dream last night about an old friend who I haven’t seen or spoken to in over a year. If anyone mentions that they’ve seen her I ususally go wide eyed & end up asking how she’s doing. I don’t even know if you could consider her my friend. We sort of have a long history.
Let’s call her Sarah.
Sarah & I had a nice group of friends in 8th grade. We were...
& here we go...
this will hopefully break my curse
the curse of the tongue-tied
let’s get everything out of my head
& here we go…
ps. i’m still trying to figure out tumblr, forgive my n00bness
